Sunday 2nd August. Another date. Another memory. Another sad goodbye.
Today was Michael’s last day in Melbourne. You see after everything that has happened it has all come down to tonight when he gets on a plane and leaves and I will probably never see him again. Now most of you who know me and know a bit about myself and Michael may expect that this is a little dramatic and that no doubt our paths will cross again….only not this time. This time is different. This time it really was goodbye. A lot of things have happened over the past few months from extreme joy to extreme upset and to be perfectly honest it’s been an absolute roller coaster ride for me ever since I visited Melbourne way back in March. A dear friend/employer once told me that people come into your life…for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I recently found this poem that I think probably sums it up quite well:
Reason, Season, or Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
— Unknown
I guess at different times Michael has been all three of these…this time I imagine I put it under the “lifetime” category. You see although our paths may never cross again, I know I need to believe that these past few months will strengthen me as a person, as a friend, as a partner…even if right now it’s hard to see the silver lining. I won’t delve too far into the workings of my confused little mind right now, but I know in the years to come when I look back over this blog I will realise and see that there was a reason for everything and that I am a better person for it. This at least I must believe.
So yes, today I spent the day at the guys house, watching films, eating leftover pizza and watching the hours tick pass as Michael packed his life away into his backpack once again, with flashbacks of being in this very situation in his room in London coming back to me. Only this time there is no open door.
Today was a hard day. I have a few friends here however who will help me enjoy myself and distract me long enough to forget….or something like that! Alex is such a lovely guy, he is like my little brother and I love him dearly. He’s not always the best with words or emotions but tonight he simply hugged me and that was really all he needed to do. He really is like family to me now. After Michael left I headed home and sat with my housemates for just a little while before heading to bed to watch some tele…I wasn’t feeling very social to be honest.
It has gotten late now and I’m still not feeling 100% so I am going to get some sleep. Apologies for the slightly sadder tone of this blog post, but travels are after all about both the ups and the downs…and there sure are a few extremes!!
More tomorrow!!
Signing off.